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Where am I? Have I lost my self or something? Something is wrong but I really can’t understand it what or why... It is stupid to be so self-conscious, and I know that.

Like usual, when I started thinking about my life, I was caught up in a dizzy spin of fantasies. I always look myself is worse than everybody else in so many ways. And it feels like I mourn over to my destiny. It makes me feel awkward. Well, I know this is so stupid. Haha.. I think it’s just an imagination from the deepest sheet of my subconscious mind (halaah!!). And #damnitstrue I dreamed to be them who are (in my sight) better than me.

It is confusing as I can’t realize where or what I am supposed to be. I can’t find myself. Where is the real ME?? The hardest thing is that I have to be grateful to God for every single part of my life He had ever given. In fact, that’s really not easy. But yeaah, that’s all what I have to do, as long as He still give me this life. Doing is better than talking. I believe I will find my own way to through this all even though I’m not completely sure. Hehee.. hoping I’ll be better for tomorrow :)